My Wedding Planning Binder

Today was much better than yesterday, though I totally have to tell y’all, Neal stop by last night to give me flowers!  It was so incredibly sweet of him!  He knew I was having a bad day and wanted to cheer me up.

This morning Neal and I met up for our 4 mile run.  It was super windy and a little chilly at first, but it was awesome running weather.  I wore my Forerunner 305 again, YAY, but totally forgot to restart it thus my timing and mileage was off.  Oh well.  We still had a great run.  I’m not sure how Neal felt, but I felt like we ran the 4 miles with ease… which is great since we are running 8 miles this Sunday!

After work, Neal and I had dinner with Heather and Greg at Maggiano’s.

Thursday, October 20 – Food Journal

  • Pre-Workout – banana
  • Breakfast – 1 cup of coffee, 1 sandwich thin, 1 egg, 2 slices of turkey bacon, and 1 slice of cheese (homemade breakfast sandwich)
  • Lunch – 1 sandwich thin, 1 veggie patty, apple and pumpkin fluff
  • Snack- banana
  • Dinner – Calamari, salmon salad with green beans, tomatoes, red onion, and dried noodles, a few bites of pumpkin cheesecake

When all was said in done, I…

  • Ate 3 serving of fruit and 6 servings of vegetables (9 out of 9 servings)
  • Ran 4 miles with Neal this morning
  • Drank 8 glasses of water (8 out of 8 )
  • Took a multivitamin and vitamin D

Tomorrow is an exciting day for me, as Neal and I are going to check out my favorite wedding venue thus far.  It is this 200 year old barn and I just LOVE the pictures!  We’ll see how it looks in person, but I’m really excited.

To help me with my planning, my Aunt Donna and my Cousin Taylor made me the cutest planning binder ever!

I loved the wrapping paper.  White, black, and teal is so cute in my opinion.

The binder had so many adorable sections, which will allow me to organize the material I receive, my notes, and my ideas.  I just love what my Aunt and Cousin made for us!

I have such an amazing family and I’m really excited to celebrate my marriage to Neal with them next summer!   Seeing the barn in the morning is exciting and I hope it takes us a step closer to having a reception venue.  Have an amazing Friday everyone!


I Want To Be The Biggest Loser

Staying motivated is an extremely important part of losing weight.  Back in 2006-2007 when I set out to lose weight, I had loving friends and family around me to support me, but my biggest motivator was actually the show The Biggest Loser.  Tonight, season 12 of the Biggest Loser, Battle of the Ages, starts.  Over the next 3-4 months, we will watch as these contestants work their butts off, literally, in the quest to win the battle over obesity.



As The Biggest Loser starts tonight, I hope to rekindle the motivation they gave me 5 years ago and to set out on a journey with them again.  I want to continue aspects of my scaleless summer, focusing on how my body feels and really looking at what’s on my plate.  In addition, I will continue to track my calories online, eating 1500 calories each day.  Starting today, I will weight myself every Tuesday morning along with the Biggest Loser competitors!

Starting Weight: 226.6 (I am shocked to see it in the 220’s)

My goal, for some time now, has been to break 200 pounds and I know I can do that!!  I want to lose more body fat and to get into even better shape.  I’m not too far off and I know I can reach this by the end of the year!  Who’s with me?

This Week’s Plan







Off– sick

Oatmeal with fig butter and pumpkin butter

Butter lettuce with northern beans, mozzarella cheese, fat free balsamic dressing

Chicken burger with ½ slice of cheese, ketchup, mustard and chips with salsa

Resting and graduate work


Spin AM

Banana and Orange Dreamsicle SuperFood Pre-Workout, Oatmeal with pumpkin butter and peanut butter post-workout

Leftover salmon and asparagus, apple sauce

Homemade pizza (cheese, onion and bell pepper)

The Biggest Loser


3 mile run

1 egg, 2 egg whites, English muffin,  laughing cow cheese, and Orange Dreamsicle SuperFood

Leftover salmon and asparagus, apple sauce

Leftover homemade pizza

graduate work


Spin AM

Banana and Orange Dreamsicle SuperFood Pre-Workout, Oatmeal with pumpkin butter and peanut butter post-workout

Progresso light soup

Gnocchi with light alfredo sauce

graduate work


30 min run

1 egg, 2 egg whites, English muffin,  laughing cow cheese, and Orange Dreamsicle SuperFood

Progresso light soup

Dinner at Nats game

Nationals baseball game with Team in Training buddies



Breakfast at Amish Market

Lunch at Iowa game


Amish Market with my Aunt, Iowa vs. ULM game


4 mile run

Protein bar pre workout, post workout ??



plenty of graduate work (big paper to write)

I hope that each of you are having an amazing week and are enjoying premiere week!

What TV shows have you been looking forward to watching this fall?

Here’s my fall DVR line up:

  • Castle
  • The Biggest Loser
  • The New Girl
  • Modern Family
  • Law and Order: SVU
  • Grey’s Anatomy
  • The Office
  • Pan Am

WOW– that’s 7.5 hours of TV… I’m thinking a few of those shows are going to have to give.

Binge Eating Confession

I have been nervous all day about writing about this post, but my journey is as much about the bad times as it is about the good times.  I hope that y’all can relate to my experience and that my openness will help someone, someway.



I have to confess, Thursday was a horrible day health/fitness wise for me.  It all started when my alarm clock went off at 5AM for spin class.  Instead of turning it off and leaving my bedroom as I’ve done the past two weeks, I instantly convinced myself that sleeping until 7AM was a much better idea.  When my alarm clock went off at 7AM, I once again talked myself back into bed and reset my alarm for 7:45AM.  Had I followed my plan, I would have been finishing up spin right around the time that I actually woke up, 7:50AM.

For whatever reason I wasn’t all that hungry Thursday morning, so around 8AM I made myself a cup of hot coffee and ate the piece of biscotti I had purchased while at HLS last weekend.  But by the time I got to work I was starving!

One of the downsides to my job is that there is always free food around the office.  Thursday morning there happened to be a bagel breakfast with lots of leftovers so around 10:30AM I snagged a bagel thin (thank God they had these) and 2 big scoops of cream cheese.  By 11:30AM, I was ready to gnaw my hand off… the processed foods and carbs had not tied me over.

At 12PM, I was thrilled to be heading over to a working lunch.  The lunch was catered by Qdoba, a Mexican food restaurant similar to Chipotle.  I was a good girl and made 2 tacos with corn tortillas instead of flour, skipped the chips, and went light on the cheese.  I also added a half a scoop of rice to my plate and a full scoop of black beans.  As I reached the end of the buffet, there was a plethora of baked goods; cookies, brownies, and more cookies.  I picked up a large chocolate chip cookie and passed on the fruit tray on my way back to my seat (big mistake).

My tacos were super yummy and although I was completely satisfied, I went up for seconds.  I had another taco and grabbed a handful of chips, topped with steak and salsa.  After I finished my plate I ate my cookie and about 15 minutes later I went up for ANOTHER cookie!  I was out of control. I was so full but I just kept eating.

At 2PM I returned to my office, feeling incredibly guilty about my breakfast, lunch, and choice to skip spin this morning.  After work I went to target, which I talked about yesterday, but what I didn’t share was that I bought a jar of Nutella.

Now Nutella is one of the foods on my naughty list.  Do you have foods that are just never good to bring home because you have a tendency to overdo it when you have them?  I mean come on, who overdoes it with oatmeal or fruit? Nutella, Mint chocolate chip ice cream (specifically the keeblers grasshopper version by Turkey Hill), and Tostitos Lime Chips are just a few of my “no-no” foods.

When I got home Thursday night, around 7PM, I wasn’t hungry at all.  I was still full from lunch and even thought, “I don’t need dinner tonight” but then I though “I could use a little dessert”.  Ashley!  You totally had 2 desserts over lunch and a piece of biscotti for breakfast!  Do you really need dessert?

Why yes, yes I do I thought to myself…. I cracked open the jar of Nutella and had a few spoonfuls… and then I had a few more spoonfuls.

At 9PM my stomach started to growl, for who know what reason, so I heated up a piece of naan bread and gobbled that down.  With a dirty dish in hand I headed back into the kitchen to clean up my dinner… but couldn’t get my mind off of the Nutella hidden behind door number 3.  5 spoonfuls later, and by spoonfuls I mean heaping spoonfuls, I had reached the bottom of the jar.

I was disgusted with myself.   I had just eaten 8-9 servings of Nutella!  At least I saved the 10 serving though right?  With 200 calories per serving, I was looking at having just consumed 1600-1800 calories and 88-99 grams of fat.  Man, just writing that makes me sick!

What makes me binge eat like that?  Why didn’t I stop?  Was it stress? Hormones? My dreaded taste buds? or just bad habits?

When I add up my breakfast, lunch, and “dinner” from Thursday, I probably consumed 4500 calories… and as I failed to exercise, I had no calories to dock from that grand total.

Today I felt horrible.  I felt bloated, discourage, disgusted, unhealthy… you name it, I felt it!  So what can I do?  How can I move on from Thursday’s day o’ eating?  Well I definitely felt down but I took a few steps to swung the pendulum to the other side.  I finished creating my 15K training program, registered for 2 races, and attempted to eat healthy.  The ultimate goal will be to create a balanced lifestyle, one that never swings me to one extreme or to another.  It’s definitely something I struggle with from time to time, but I’m working on it and I truly feel that being open and honest about it is the best thing I can do.


Glad to get that off my chest!!